Here's what had happened...
I tried y'all, I really did. I hit the first two weeks hard. Eating a rainbow of food, or at least as much of one as I could get from the grocery store, and I drink SOOO much salty water my eyeballs floated. It just wasn't sustainable for me AT ALL. While I had energy, I was miserable. The bloating and stomach cramps alone from all the fiber was enough to put me out of commission. I thought it would go away after my body got accustomed to it. Guess what? It DIDN'T! By the end of week 2, I was just a giant, uncomfortable flesh bag of gas. I was 5 pounds lighter but still miserable. The hubs brought home one of those 26 inch pizzas from Stella's and I was so over it. Down the hatch the pizza went.
So yeah, my body the pinto, much like its namesake, exploded. I failed again. Most of these diets just aren't sustainable for working and busy moms because it involves so much meal prep and planning. I spent more time figuring out what to eat than I did eating it and ended up having an unhealthy relationship with the food I was eating. I mean it was like an abusive relationship that I needed to get out of but the food kept telling me it "loved" me. Insensitive metaphor, absolutely, but that is honestly how it felt. I know the food is good for me but it made me so uncomfortable and took so much work that I was wondering if it was worth it?
What I learned...
Here is what I learned from this experience. I like the salty water and I'll keep doing that. I Hate the idea of single use plastics so bottled water has always been out for me. City water has always given me heartburn. It isn't as bad here as it was in Raleigh but there is still something in the water that doesn't agree with me and sets my chest on fire if I drink a lot of it. So salty distilled water it is. I can recycle the jugs and not feel guilty. Plus, I drink so much more water than I did.
I learned that I love shakes. I've done the powdered proteins before with water or milk but never really experimented with different fruits and greens. I've found a few combinations that I like and they have a full serving of fruits AND vegetables. While I don't eat horribly, I never could manage to get all the recommended fruits and veggies in during the day. This helps and is super easy. Surprisingly, spinach and pineapple was a big favorite.
This is always my next question. Honestly, this time I'm not sure. I've got a few ideas and I still have the rest of Daren Olien's book to finish. I'll be honest, I've been on a sci-fi kick and started and finished a series instead of reading his book like I should have. However, the rest of Olien's book is about other lifestyle ideas and I'll still cover them in the next few weeks because a few of the ideas intrigue me.
I'm not beating myself up over this one. I think we, I'm talking people in general, all tend to set ourselves up for failure because we approach diets with a fatalistic mentality. Did I have a few minutes, while shoving Stella's pizza in my mouth, where I thought that I would always be fat and unhealthy? Sure I did! I think we all go there when we're trying to find what works for us. I mean, I'm body positive. Even at my heaviest, I know I'm gorgeous. Losing weight isn't a confidence thing for me but a health thing. I have kids now, I have a business and I'm self employed. I have to be as healthy as I can be. If I'm not working, I'm not getting paid. I would love to play with the kids more. Five minutes on the trampoline and I'm done. These are my whys and I need to continue to focus on those.
So I'll keep trucking and I think that is the most important thing. If you get nothing from my failure take that golden nugget of truth with you. Keep trying! While we all generally know what we need to do to lose weight, there is no one size fits all. I've tried soooooo many diets because it worked for a friend and then it didn't work for me. It's frustrating, but keep looking. Eventually you will find something that works.
I've got two options that I'm looking at for my next attempt and I'll let you know in a couple of weeks if I take the plunge. Needless to say, the Pinto to Ferrari Series has now become a longer series because I think its healthy for others to see that they're not the only ones who struggle. We can be on the struggle bus together. That should make us feel better right?